Unreliable.

Ugh... I hate feeling like I let people down. But sometimes I'm so unmotivated and lazy that I can't seem but help doing it. And I hate that. So I'll get all worked up after and stay on top of things for a little while until some time passes and then.... then predictably things go back to the way they always are.

I don't know why I have no ambition. I really don't. I'm very apathetic about most things, but then I feel guilty for being so. So I guess I'm only apathetic to my own future? To my own commitments? I dunno....

*sighs*

I want to change. And invariably, I'll try to change, last a while and then... well I guess we'll see.

Sorry to everyone I have let down recently.

And in the past.

I'll try my best to keep from doing so again...



PS - This has absolutely nothing to do with my being at home right now, no one here is upset with me right now. Thank god.