Artsy

[chiba_yuriko]

It's kinda odd, I lost all will to -try- on my fanfics since I can never really -finish- them or get a good actual plot going (despite numerous good ideas).

And then suddenly I have this want and need to write a fic about Wolfram and Conrad talking about Yuuri and my Yami fic popped back into my head and is poking at me a -lot.-

All this while a huge art streak just hit me too. I'm doing two, maybe three, art contests for Gaia and have just been -drawing- things lately.

On top of that I've been making layouts, icons, wallpapers and skins lately too after a long spell of not doing any of those either.

Huh.

I'm certainly not complaining. ^.~

In other news I'm starting to feel kinda... lazy. I dunno. I know I tried to get a job and I've pretty much run out of time to effectively WORK for anyone for any period of time worth it to them, but I think I could have tried harder. I -did- try. I know that, but I could have done more maybe? And the same with scholarships over the year. I applied to a whole buttload of them. 15+ or so. Not one of them ever got back to me. Albeit some were small, but some weren't and -none- of them came through. And again I feel like maybe I should have tried just that little bit harder and maybe something would have happened. In any case, I'm starting to worry about expenses next year. Not only do I have -neither- a job this summer or scholarships to help, but I'm not sure how much of a loan they'll give me (due to complications with turning the damn application in on time) AND my brother is starting community college next year too.

*sighs*

I hate money.

....

But I do love art right now. *laughs sheepishly*

Edit: *pokes at the phone* I think telemarketers are trying to tell me I have back and neck pain. 0.o Tell me something I don't know stupid heads. *laughs* Maybe I should start listening to the 'free offers' to relieve the pain or get it looked at. ^^;;

Comments

[nanya-hime.livejournal.com]

Talking about job hunting x_x ... I actually WAS doing it for a while, got some interviews but blew them at some point. I can gladly go on zombie hunting but not job hunting. You never know what those people spinning comfortably in their office chair want when they go through our applications ;_; ... Heck, but I'll never get my ideal job anyway (which is to be a fanmaid in Yuuri's castle and peep and slash all the bishounen in the world XD). Anyway, good luck on your search!

[kurosakihisoka.livejournal.com]

Liz put it best: In BC they hand scholarships out like candy. I got two and I'm a little better than average student.

I wish I could draw. *having problems with it* X-x

[jadeweepingrose.livejournal.com]

.... I think you should tell the telemarketers that you suffer pain from having to reach out and answer the fucking phone all the time. I should get a job as a telemarketer. I had sex with a telemarketer... it wasn't very good... except for the time i was wearing cowboy boots. I'm sorry for that... I'm a chronic rhinocerous.